[He pauses a little once that's out there; he isn't the best at empathy for this sort of thing, because death is a constant part of his reality. He knows, on some level, that everyone he kills has a family and a life outside of the purpose he sets them to, but it's not really something he can think about for too long. He's had his own period of darkness in his life regarding things like that, after all.]
I don't deserve an apology for that, since I'm the one who killed him.
[It's... hard to type it. It's his responsibility, and he knew that, but... it's hard every time that he admits it. He's... pretty sure he was wrong. Takatora may have been naive, but he shouldn't have killed him. Incapacitated him, maybe.]
I guess. It sounds like him, it looks like him... but he doesn't say the same things. He's not the same person. I shouldn't even be saying that it's him, because it's not.
For what it's worth, I don't think you're a terrible person.
Maybe what you did was unforgivable, maybe it was justified, I don't know the situation. But as someone who's done their own share of questionable things, I don't think you're terrible as an individual.
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Date: 2015-03-12 05:47 am (UTC)[He pauses a little once that's out there; he isn't the best at empathy for this sort of thing, because death is a constant part of his reality. He knows, on some level, that everyone he kills has a family and a life outside of the purpose he sets them to, but it's not really something he can think about for too long. He's had his own period of darkness in his life regarding things like that, after all.]
For what it's worth, I'm sorry for your loss.
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Date: 2015-03-12 05:57 am (UTC)[It's... hard to type it. It's his responsibility, and he knew that, but... it's hard every time that he admits it. He's... pretty sure he was wrong. Takatora may have been naive, but he shouldn't have killed him. Incapacitated him, maybe.]
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Date: 2015-03-12 05:58 am (UTC)If you expect me to judge you harshly for that, I'm not going to.
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Date: 2015-03-12 06:01 am (UTC)[He just... doesn't seem the type.]
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Date: 2015-03-12 06:10 am (UTC)The fact that you're still seeing him, however...regardless of what you think you deserve, I think that fact makes the apology remain appropriate.
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Date: 2015-03-12 06:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-03-14 09:08 pm (UTC)Maybe what you did was unforgivable, maybe it was justified, I don't know the situation. But as someone who's done their own share of questionable things, I don't think you're terrible as an individual.
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Date: 2015-03-15 04:25 am (UTC)Thank you. That means a lot to me. More than I think you could know, really.