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[He'd considered doing video or voice when he'd made the decision to make this post, but no. He wasn't sure if he could control his facial expressions or voice while he did.]

Tsukiyama Shuu is gone, in case anyone was looking for him. He's off the contact list, so I assume he's gone home.

Just in case anyone wanted to know.

This place isn't very fair, is it?

[He hadn't meant to put that last part, but he'd hit 'post' before he could take it back.]

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[If anyone's near the beach in Olivine, Micchy is there, looking out at the sea and skipping rocks into it. He's got a Vulpix who's sitting and sunning herself and an Absol who doesn't seem to like this sun as much, but otherwise he's on his own.]

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Yeah, it really isn't.

This sucks. He... was helping me a lot. Now I don't really know what to do.

[He'd been a somewhat stable 'adult' presence. Now... it just hurt.]

I thought I was done with losing people.

Well, at least he went back home, right?

I guess so. But I wanted him to stay.

... Maybe that's selfish, I don't know.

It's not selfish. Our worlds are made up of the people we know.

Guess I have a kind of small world, then.

That's fine, as long as you're not blocking out chances to grow it.

...if it helps any I had to learn that the hard way before I came here.

... Dunno.

And... me too. I guess. I made it smaller. Here's really the only place where I have people I can talk to.

But even if you lost someone, you're not the same person you were when you met them, right? Even if it's a really small group?

I guess. It's just... at home, I don't have anyone. Here... it's only a few people. And even if I'm different, each person has a different sort of role that they can fill. ... So when one's gone, it's... hard.

I hear you man. I wish I could say something that would make it easier. Just that I know you can get through it with time

How much time? I'm tired of this. It's not like I want to go home, but I'm still really tired of this.

And it makes me feel like it's my fault even if it's not.

I wish I knew man. But I CAN tell you it's not your fault at all, got it?

This one isn't, at least.

[Ah.

Kaneki isn't sure how he feels about the fact that this is how he's just now finding out about this. After all...it had been a while since he and Tsukiyama talked. They'd been doing things over the Gear, and that had worked out just fine.

They never did get the chance to meet to talk in person. Now, they won't.

Funny how things work out that way, isn't it? In the end, maybe...that was for the best.]

You tried contacting him?

[It seems like a stupid thing to ask since he obviously did, or he wouldn't have made this post. But Kaneki can't think of anything more to say.]

Yes. He's not on the contact list anymore.

[Just to make sure, Kaneki takes a moment to check for himself before answering. And...well, he's not sure what else he was expecting.]

I see.

Thank you for saying something, Micchy-san.

Someone had to.

Even if we wish it didn't have to be said.

Yeah.

[...]

Are you alright? I didn't realize you and Tsukiyama-san were that close.

We didn't like have lunch every week or something, but he helped me a lot.

It's okay. I don't mean to pry, or anything...you don't have to explain. I'm sorry, though. The way people come and go so suddenly here is hard to deal with, sometimes.

[It's almost like losing a loved one, except...usually, you know they're going home, unless they weren't...still alive, before.]

It's okay. It really is hard to deal with.

Were you two... close, too?

We didn't have lunch every week or anything, but we did talk every now and then.

[It's a weak attempt at making things just a little more lighthearted, but...it doesn't really help.]

He helped me a lot too.

[It gets a slight chuckle on Micchy's end, at least.]

Oh.

... Sorry, then.

It's not your fault.

I just wish we had talked more before he left.

I guess... we can't go back, can we? Even if we want to. To redo things, I mean.

Unless something strange happens here to make that possible...we can't. I'm not sure trying to would be a good idea, anyway.

Yeah.

... I think I'm going to go to the beach for a little while. Maybe try to get my mind off of this...

That's probably a good idea. It would get you out of your own head for a while.

Talk to somebody if you need to though, okay?

[Maybe he'll take his own advice, too.]

... I'll try.

Keep in touch, all right? It's not like I'm far. ... Except when you're at work, I guess.

I will. No matter where I am, you can always message me. I'll get back to you.

Things in general aren't very fair, I've found.

[...But maybe that's just been horrible luck. It's hard to tell the difference.]

That might be true. But it's still terrible.

It is. Even here away from all sorts of other problems, I guess there still has to be one unfair thing.]

I wish that wasn't the case, but I guess you can't get everything you wish for, right?

This place can be pretty strange, but, no, it has its limits like anywhere else.

There's a chance that people we know could show up, whether for the first time again. Yet that sort of hope feels like too little.

Maybe it's dumb to think but I'd like to hope that maybe it could be enough. I used to know someone who probably would have liked to think so, at least.

There's no harm in wanting to do that. If you think that's what would help you, then you should do it.

I don't exactly have a good track record of knowing what's best in a situation...

But it doesn't sound like it'll do much harm.

Let's hope that this changes things around, then.

Nowhere to go but up, right?

[Huh. That's a nice way of thinking about it.]

At least up seems to be an easy way to go here.

And a pretty forgiving place about that, too.

It's true. There are worse places to be. It almost makes me think of a kind of purgatory, in the kinder sense.

Funny, I thought I'd be going somewhere else.

But I don't mind it. This place keeps me busy enough most of the time.

I can sympathize with that.

With traveling, or other things?

Other things, mostly. My Pokemon are pretty good at being distracting when they feel like it.

At least they'll always stay with us while we're here. That's reassuring, I think.

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